DECONSTRUCTION: Kudos Myrtle Abigail Sarrosa!

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DECONSTRUCTING MYRTLE

Perhaps one of, if not, the most enigmatic personalities to land in Philippine reality TV history, Myrtle Abigail Sarrosa has surely raised the interest – may it be positive or negative – of a lot of people. And that includes me.

First off, let us establish a clear ground of where this analysis is heading by laying down facts and maintaining an unbiased blow-by-blow reaction of the issues and controversies plaguing her. As a rule of thumb, let me define points of how this analysis came up to be by giving a brief background on what interested me most about the issue.

Reality TV shows aren’t really my cup of tea, much more the highly-sensationalized PBB, for the fact that almost everybody who join these competitions are mostly rehashed personalities of one another. There are no “stand-out” characters and usual contestants usually fall on the following stereotypes: the poor boy who is the breadwinner of his family, the kalog and cheerful barrio lass, the misunderstood socialite, the humorous joker with a troubling past, the all-around pretty face, the half-Filipino whose looking for a lost parent, the rich kid who wants to give it a try just for the heck of it, the wannabe artistas, the rulebreaker, so on and so forth. The usual housemates, from the first edition to the latest, usually fit one or two of these labels – different faces, different stories, similar common personalities. That was one of the reasons why I was never interested. Until of course, this season came. Before the popular catchphrase “PBB Teens” came out, this edition already got my attention the day a teaser was aired about the cosplaying, SK President, University of the Philippines student who will join the cast.

Now that’s an interesting combination: a cosplayer that is a young leader and an Iskolar ng Bayan. These three aren’t exactly mutually exclusive, though. UP is one of the most conducive environments in promoting individualism which is why an Iska Cosplayer isn’t something new. Now, a student leader who cosplays may appear as rather far-fetched but this is a phenomenon we have observed to be true in the persona of Myrtle – something that we will count as one of many enigmatic things about her. With all these, what struck me most is not how she is all three, but rather the fact that an SK-president/cosplayer/UP student will join PBB. And this is what got me interested in this PBB season. FINALLY, a new personality is included into that long disused list… the introduction of “THE WEIRD”.

WEIRDTLE

As the url of this blog suggests, this will be a quasi-analysis about the weird person that is Myrtle Abigail Sarrosa. There’s this wonderful cultural process we call reappropriation.  Reappropriation refers to the process by which a group reclaims—re-appropriates—terms that were previously used in a way disparaging of that group. Examples of this are how the pejorative ‘nigger’ used to demean black people were re-appropriated into ‘nigga’ as a way of reversing the negative stigma associated with the word. Re-appropriation is also the reason why ‘gay’ is no longer considered irrevocably demoralizing when referring to members of the LGBT community and how ‘otaku’ has developed from its negative background as Japan’s way of referring to someone with obsessive interests in geek culture to something that fandom people would fondly call themselves. In line with this, we will use re-appropriation with the word Myrtle followers (yes, I call you followers, haters) has coined for her: WEIRDTLE. Weird is defined as fantastic; bizarre; or something that refers to that which is mysterious and apparently outside natural law. Basing on the lexical definition of the word, it will be safe enough to assume that Myrtle is, in fact, weird.

It is pointless to enumerate the things that made her strange to other people because these are very apparent. The most obvious indication would be the fact that at least half of the PBB consumer population (as based on online feedback) misunderstands her greatly. This also brings me back to the purpose of this blog. Deconstructing Myrtle Sarrosa and making the intelligent public understand a little bit more about her. I will attempt to decode the phenomenon that is the “MYRTLE LOVE/HATE” and will compartmentalize my analysis in three parts: PERSONALITY BACKGROUND (includes Family History, Childhood, Personality Type, and other factors such as Identity Crisis and Adolescence), ISSUES AND CONTROVERSIES (cosplaying, make-up, loveteams, goals), and REACTION OF THE PEOPLE. So, shall we start?

PERSONALITY

There are many factors which influence a person’s personality. The age-long debate on nature vs nurture is one way of determining or understanding the nature of a person but in this post, we’ll mix the two. To understand Myrtle, one must have a clear mind (it’s a must) and an even clearer knowledge of who she is more than what the PBB management has shared to its audience. To start with this, let us tackle her family.

FAMILY

Myrtle Sarrosa is the eldest daughter of Fatima and Rudolfo “Russ” Sarrosa Jr. Her grandfather, Rudy Sarrosa, is the former mayor of Barotac Nuevo, Iloilo and her dad is a councilor. The Sarrosas, apart from being active in the political scene, are known as one of the relatively wealthier families in Barotac Nuevo. Hence, it is no wonder if Myrtle was brought up with a personal yaya by her side. One may ask, why do we need to raise her family background in this personality analysis? Simple, because this fact alone is enough to answer one of the largest misunderstandings circulating her as of the moment: that is her perfectionist nature and trying too hard to please others.

To assert my stance, let us not jump on this matter upon value-judgment. Let us free our minds of those labels of her being perfectionist/uptight/trying hard and simply focus on her family influence. We neither affirm nor deny if these labels are correct but we will attempt to scratch beyond the surface on why she happened to act this way.

Given the fact that Myrtle is born in a politically-affluent family, she had already been exposed to the public eye at a young age. Like most members of known families, there are a lot of expectations given to you – may it be unspoken or not. Myrtle, by the mere fact that she is a Sarrosa, carries with her not only her name but the name of her family as well. For a teenager (and any other sane human being), this is a rather heavy responsibility to bear. To be ‘perfect’ and ‘proper’ because everything you do will reflect on your family – that even if  your family didn’t necessarily demand you to be that way, you will still feel a subliminal need to live up to what was expected of you as part of the clan. This can be one of the reasons why she is so ‘uptight’ and concerned about the way she presents herself. Her trait of being an ‘achiever’ can be credited to this.

Some people may not understand the pressure of being affiliated with an influential family but to those who are smart enough to understand, we can see the reason on why Myrtle’s personality is like that. Moving on…

CHILDHOOD

There was never an officially released statement about Myrtle’s childhood except for those accounts of how she was a victim of bullying back then. On why she was bullied and by whom is something that we cannot answer – and it is also something we do not necessarily need to dig – but it is important that we take in consideration this childhood experience to understand her.

Bullying is a form of aggressive behavior manifested by the use of coercion to affect others, particularly when the behavior is habitual and involves an imbalance of power. Bullying consists of three basic types of abuse – emotional, verbal, and physical. Bullying happens everywhere – in school, church, family, the workplace, home, and neighborhoods. In Myrtle’s case, it’s in school.

Regardless of where it took place, effects of bullying can be serious. It may range from social exclusion to violence to other intense psychological traumas for the victim. People have come up with different defense mechanisms to cope up with bullying; repression, suppression, sublimation, etc. Some people who were once bullied later on become bullies themselves. Some others remain withdrawn all their lives. And a relatively few, managed to bring themselves up and let go of the painful memories associated with childhood demoralization. Bullying is an overrated phenomenon yet it is mostly overlooked. We salute survivors of bullying but what we do not know is anything that happens in childhood leaves scars. Victims may be able to pull themselves together but the insecurities inflicted to them will always be there. It will never leave. It may be neutralized, yes, and some may even try to hide it in the deepest chasms of their consciousness, but it will never leave.

On a deeper observation, one can see how Myrtle is often trapped between the choice of being indifferent to what others feel and trying her best to compromise. This confusion leaves her in a state of being inconsistent with her actions. Perhaps honed by experience from being bullied, she tried to be indifferent to the negative things said to her by the housemates and yet, there’s still that longing to fill the void which is the need to be accepted. This ignites those moments of uncertainty she feels inside the house (a controlled environment) and something that is also supplemented by the next part.

PERSONALITY TYPE

In a generally extraverted country like the Philippines, Myrtle’s personality is more of a “threat” than a “breath of fresh air”. We are not sure what Myrtle’s personality type is exactly but the way we see it, she comes off as an INFJ (using the MBTI system). She, at times, portrays INTJ characteristics too but as of the moment she displays strong INFJ traits.

INFJs, for the less knowledgeable, are among the rarest of the sixteen Myers-Briggs personality types, constituting only 1-3% of the general population. INFJs grow up feeling “different” from their peers. The more pronounced their Introversion and Intuition, the more estranged they are likely to feel. Young INFJs also feel misunderstood by their elders, who can be quick to ignore or dismiss their precocious insights and observations. If given unsympathetic circumstances, INFJs may come to feel isolated or rejected rather early in life. INFJs are “old souls.” They grow up feeling far wiser than would be predicted by their chronological age. INFJs are among the most profoundly creative of all types. Many INFJs struggle with bouts of depression, which may relate to any number of things. They may, for instance, get depressed when they feel their creative inspiration has left them. Or, because of their otherworldliness, they may struggle with feeling deeply alone and misunderstood.  INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people’s feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement. (personality page || personality junkie)

Sounds familiar? Sounds very Myrtle-ish to me.

Myrtle has been referred to recently as someone who “has her own world”. I believe introverts are known for this. However, what I do not understand is how society sees this as something negative. It’s amusing how the world isn’t very lenient to individualists and yet the movers of change and highly-revered personalities in science and arts are mostly introverted (Einstein is an INTP, Carl Gustav Jung is an INFJ, Bill Gates is an INTP, please google the rest). For this, we have come to the conclusion that because introverts spend time being with themselves, the greater majority (extroverts) finds this exhilarating. Fear is something we feel only towards things we do not know. People will not fear something that they are aware of. It is always the unknown —- the less-traversed road, the dark, the thing which we cannot see, the thing we are not sure of —- which strikes fear into our hearts. And maybe, that’s what society feels towards introverts. Because introverts are usually drawn to themselves and only lets a small part of their soul to see, it scares the typical extravert because s/he isn’t able to understand what goes on inside the introvert’s mind.

Myrtle, being an INFJ, is automatically clustered in the 1-3% of the population. As part of the minority, she automatically takes the title WEIRD. She does not fit with the norm and this is why she is misunderstood.

The last argument of the personality part is IDENTITY CRISIS and ADOLESCENT STAGE. I combined the two because they are closely connected. Both are also products of the three previously mentioned topics.

Granting that Myrtle is affected by subconscious concerns related to her familial background, this creates a psychological vacuum in contrast to her being an INFJ. Based on family history, there is the existing notion of communal definition on the way she acts – wherein her actions are an answer to what is expected of her or what she thinks is expected of her. This is contradicting with her need to assert her individuality – the predominant aspect of her being an artistic INFJ. These two highly-polar concepts of communalism and individuality is a ground on what might have caused a ‘personality crises’ for her. For one, this also addresses my previously signposted issue about the contradiction of her “cosplaying” personality and her “SK president” personality.

The beauty of the human soul that most people fail to actually understand is the ability to transcend and be dynamic. Perhaps, we are socially-construed to the notion that one person equals one personality that we fail (or rather we close our mind) to the possibilities of a highly-varied personality other people might possess. When someone shows highly-polarizes traits/habits, we automatically point it as ‘identity crisis’.

On Myrtle, notice how she is very strict when it comes to tasks (to the point of being bossy and anal retentive) and then how she switches to the cute, cheerful otaku that she is once it’s over? This switching of two seemingly opposite personalities is something that society does not like. Society does not like impermanence. Society does not like change – especially if it happens too fast. Society does not like what they cannot predict. This trait of Myrtle is labeled as INCONSISTENCY; because surely, how can you be leader-like, bossy, strict one moment and then be child-like the next? Is that even possible?

Answer? YES, it is. Call it identity crisis if you want but the fact that a person is able to switch her disposition does not automatically mean that she has multiple personality disorders. We believe the right term should be MULTI-FACETED PERSONALITY. And isn’t that something we should glorify? Being able to adapt into any situation at the most comfortable manner without necessarily stepping into other people’s rights and producing the most detrimental effects?

This flows on to the fact that most people forget when dealing about Myrtle: the ADOLESCENT PHASE.

There are people to whom society is most lenient to: pregnant women, PMS-ing females, and teenagers. The common denominator of all these? Right, HORMONES. Myrtle is still a teenager. Hence, she is still dictated by the hormonal imbalances happening in her body. As a teenager, she is expected to commit mistakes. It’s her PRIVILEGE. But maybe because she has established herself initially as a level-headed, mind-over-matter girl, people tend to forget that she is but another teenager. She is subject to mood swings, angst moments, fluctuating emotions, and the like. This adolescent stage also covers one major issue which is her so-called love life. Something that perfectly acts as segue to our ISSUES AND CONTROVERSIES part.

ISSUES AND CONTROVERSIES

THE MYRVES CONUNDRUM: Oh why is she so in denial? Why can’t she simply tell her feelings? Answer? Because she does not want to and she does not feel the need to.

This is a really irksome answer and yet it is something we must accept. Going back to what we have established about her personality and how she is caught between the ‘dazed and confused’ phase at times, we go back on reiterating how her family life played a huge part. Imagine, for 17 years, she has been accustomed to checking and rechecking herself constantly to preserve family name. With this, one cannot simply dictate her to let go of all those years of ‘think before you act’ habit just so she can fit our accepted definition of being “real” (this I will discuss later).

The way Myrtle answered the question thrown to her by ex-housemate Nikka, on how one must not define things as simply black and white and how she cannot say that she has feelings for Yves but cannot say no also because she isn’t sure, tells us a lot about her principles in life. We can assume that Myrtle does like Yves but the fact that she still chose her principles of not having a boyfriend shows how the feelings she has for him isn’t that strong. And of course, who are we to dictate how she should react to that whirlpool of emotions? We are merely spectators. If she gets hurt for keeping her feelings, let her be. It’s hers after all.  

Also, have you ever heard of crushes? If your crush tells you he likes you and you like him too, will you immediately say yes? Are you a Disney princess? Funny how people use the catchphrase “PBB Teens?!” when referring to how much they find ‘PDAing teens’ despicable and yet they subtly hint on promoting teenage affairs by imposing the terms “in denial” to a person who, in all due fairness, does not succumb to the “i-like-you-you-like-me-let’s-have-a-baby” mentality. Myrtle is in denial but then again, we cannot impose her on what actions we want her to do. What matters is she can stand up to her decisions and that is something we are yet to see in the coming days/weeks/years.

COSPLAYING: It is a form of self-expression. Much like how singers pour their heartaches to their songs and how dancers channel their frustrations on their dance moves, cosplaying – and any other hobby – works that way. To Myrtle, more than self-expression, cosplay is also a defense mechanism. It is difficult to explain cosplay to people especially if said people had already closed their minds to the notion. As a subculture, we understand the negative contention about cosplaying. Very much how people frown upon kpop lovers, indie bands, etc., something out-of-the-ordinary is a defense mechanism unacceptable to the less mentally-able society members. But then again, we pose this, if people do not find anything wrong with guys/gals singing/acting/dancing/drawing to convert their negative emotions; we do not see the fuss about our friends who let out their frustrations to the lesser-accepted way such as cosplaying. As long as they’re not running over somebody else in the process, why hate on them? In the words of Eugene Domingo, WALANG BASAGAN NG TRIP!

MAKE-UP: Honestly, this is a very irrelevant thing and we don’t even know why it is raised. But for matters of discussion, let us answer it. Make-up enhances appearance; appearance boosts self-esteem; self-esteem makes you happy. (And if make-up is so repulsively wrong, why are celebrities using it?) As long as it is your face you’re experimenting on and it’s your skin to which rashes will grow, we don’t think people need to care even when you decide to paint your face to look like Chuckie’s bride. Once again, WALANG BASAGAN NG TRIP.

ENJOYMENT: Oh, we’ve heard a lot about this!

Myrtle, why are you so hard on yourself?! Myrtle, loosen up! Why are you so uptight? It’s okay to do wrong, stop pressuring yourself! You should learn to enjoy!

Enjoyment varies. One need not party hard just to say she enjoys doing things. I have a friend back in college who spends his time translating snippets of LOTR into binary language. He does that when he is free or when he is not rubbing his nose on his biochem book. It freaks me out, honestly, but if the dude finds enjoyment in that, who am I to judge?

It’s amusing how people comment on Myrtle to loosen up and enjoy yet when she shows that she does by cosplaying, the same people complain.

Ah, Filipinos aren’t we a precious bunch of concerned and inconsistent individuals? If Myrtle finds her happiness in cosplaying, putting on make-up, or competing with herself, then let her be. When she grows up and looks back on things, she’ll learn that mistakes are normal. But then as mere audiences, we are not entitled to hate her (or wish her dead) for this.

GOALS: When asked why she joined PBB, Myrtle answered “to be an inspiration”. This answer spurted raging reactions from haters and fans, alike. The debate can go on forever whether she had lived up to her goal. Personally, the answer to this question is both yes and no. To some, she falls short of their expectations and yet to others, she has inspired them to do something - perhaps hone a craft, speak up, etc. Either way, Myrtle has clearly stated her reason why she joined. It was a very bold thing to say and she might not know the repercussions of her words but the fact that she knows what she’s into and she is determined to get it is inspiring. She got into the house with a goal in mind. She might have faltered along the way but the fact that she always, always manages to pick herself up to get there is amazing. 

We can only assume on why she is so keen on proving herself. It might be the family issue or her childhood experience. But what’s most commendable is that, despite her willingness to win, she had never stepped on anybody along the way. This kind of attitude is rare and to see a seventeen-year old kid embody it might came off as a shock to many.

REACTION OF THE PEOPLE

Finally, we have reached the third and most important part. For the record, there is no such thing as Myrtle vs Karen vs Twins vs Harry Potter vs Voldemort vs JYP vs Usagi vs Afghanistan. I don’t understand why people need to make it appear like the Big 4 are fighting against each other. They are friends! PBB is competition, yes, but you can see that these kids have already created a bond. Can we not live well by not putting one down for the sake of another?

Myrtle fans, I know you get bashed a lot but let us be more patient. Emulate the attitude of your bet. Karen/Twins/Roy and other Myrtle-haters, hate is a heavy burden. Why are you even wasting time, effort, and money for someone you do not even like? To prove a point? Well, that’s good but then again, regardless if Myrtle wins or not, she will not lament over the fact that you spent hundreds just to prove how much you hate her. She’ll be surrounded by her fans and the people who love her for her to even acknowledge the ‘point’ you’re trying to make. Same goes to you Karen/Twins/Roy haters. This BBE thing is a manifestation of crab mentality. Aside from monetary purposes, I do not see other reasons why it is necessary in the PBB voting system. If you want your bet to win, do it in a calm and civilized manner. Text BBS.

BBE is the tool of the weak and the hopeless. Do not shame yourself to the point of lowering your level just to justify your enmity to a person who does not even know you exist.

But then again, who am I to speak right? I respect individualism so yea, if you find happiness in adding wrinkles to your face, then go. Enjoy.

Before this post ends, we answer the question: Is Myrtle real?

It depends on your definition of real, actually. How real is real? How do you quantify ‘real’? What if the ‘real’ you is a back-stabbing, in-denial, heartless git? Will it be considered non-real if it is something you are aware of doing and yet you still do it? You fake yourself in front of other people but you know that you are just being true to your preconditioned ‘backstabbing’ self.

Confusing? EXACTLY.

Being real is something we cannot decide (especially if we are not even directly interacting with the person). As human beings, we are subjected to our everyday dealing with our surroundings. Our values are usually impermanent and we might act different now to how we act years ago, but then, does that make us non-real? In psychology, there is this concept called the Johari Window (google it). It is composed of four “windows”: Arena (known to self, known to others), Façade (known to self, unknown to others), Blind Spot (unknown to self, known to others), and Unknown (unknown to others and self). There are a lot of aspects to our personalities that we, ourselves, do not even know.  Sometimes, the journey of knowing yourself takes a lifetime. How much more trying to assess another person for being real?

Trying to asking the question whether Myrtle, Karen, Joj/Jai, and Roy have been real is futile. Granting that everybody is so keen on ‘being true’, then let’s change that Big Brother slogan ‘iboto ang nagpakatotoo’ to what it really is: ‘iboto mo ang gusto mo’.

CONCLUSION

We are all granted freedom to give opinions (and in it, the freedom to offend) which is why to argue about things in a subjective manner will lead us nowhere. Myrtle may be playing safe, plastik, malandi, in denial, trying hard, uptight to some and she may be ‘the ideal daughter’, the one who works hard for the common good to others - at the end of the day, Myrtle will be who we think she is to our subjective and biased minds. Hence, it is important that before we jump to name-calling, we should have an objective understanding of why she came to be that way in our perception.

As for me, yes, Myrtle is weird. But so is everyone else. Each one of us has our own dose of weirdness. If you think that her weirdness is annoying, you have to open your eyes and broaden your mind. The way we see it, Myrtle is a walking contradiction. Even though the way she pulls herself together at the moment —- her unwavering determination and her strong sense of self-worth —- is something exceptional for a person her age, she is still young and she still has much to learn. 

I can understand why Myrtle has created a buzz in the Philippine entertainment world. Pinoy show business is not yet ready for her kind. Hers is the type which you expect to end up in public office, or in a multi-national conglomerate, or in a National Artist nominee list – not showbiz.

Either way, thank you Myrtle for letting us know of your existence. That there are still kids like you and that no matter how harsh society may be, as long as your kind still exists, perhaps, there’s still hope for the Philippines.

You might not end up the Big Winner but you’ve already won the heart and respect of the Filipino thinking populace.

God speed, Myrtle Gail. God speed.

CORNUCOPIA: A Piece of Confession!

RP: A letter from Cathy Salcedo to MYRTLE SARROSA (PBB Teen Edition) --- powerful words!!!! Be sure to finish reading this....

Dear Myrtle Gail Sarrosa,

I'm an expatriate living in the United Arab Emirates, 27 years old, and an unwed mother. I'm not even sure why I'm writing this message to you; you might even agree with me that I'm a little too old to be such a huge fan of a 17-year old lady like you in a show called PBB. Lest Laurenti Dyogi gets me wrong, let me make it clear that I am not a fan of Pinoy Big Brother.

Simply put, I am, instead, a huge fan of Myrtle Abigail Sarrosa.

I guess I am writing this message to you because we have a lot in common.

First off, I, too, studied and graduated from UP in Diliman campus. Like you, I excelled in school during my time. I was a student leader and was good at it.

Second, I can say that I am also an achiever in life. My former teachers used to call me a "born winner." I have had consistently displayed a pattern of excellence when I was your age. And I never had to brag about it. There are people around me such as my friends and my mentors who would go out their way to brag about my achievements and awards but never, never in my life had I felt any tinge of whims or caprices to brag anything about what I've achieved in my life. I am guessing that just like you, I just feel very comfortable under my own skin.

Our third common denominator is this: Most of the girls my age (when I was your age) do not like me. I did not know why. There were times when I would spend hours and hours thinking why I can't get the other girls to like me. I was not sure if they hated me. But one thing was certain: most of the girls do not like me. They have always talked behind my back for reasons that I did not know.

Fourth common denominator: Most of the boys like me. And the only boys who did not like me were either gay (like in your case, someone like Vice Ganda) or totally out of my league (like in your case, maybe someone like Roy).

Our fifth common denominator, which, by the way, was I think the ultimate reason why I'm spending my time writing this message to you is: Our BEING BULLIED for no apparent reason.

Sixth thing in common around us: The "bullies" who bully us are the people who are average... the average Joes... the plain Janes... the mediocre... the bunch of insecured, unintelligent people. The mediocre.

Myrtle, in your case, I hope you realize that Karen and Roy are not the ultimate bully. They are just "baby bully." They're just the tip of the iceberg.

In your case, Myrtle, there are a lot of many other bullies, the ultimate ones:

1. Laurenti Dyogi. - Myrtle, this person does not like you. And that's for sure. Period. You are not his pet inside the house. This person is now very busy thinking big of himself, feeling full of himself, thinking how genius he was to have created the BBE strategy to drag you down.

Myrtle, I hope you realize that both the BBS and BBE are set to give PBB and Dyogi a win-win situation. Both BBS and BBE mean money for them. A win-win situation meaning more money for them and not the Big Winner title for you. These are the two things they want: (1) More money for them & (2) not the Big Winner title for you. Two things... both in their favor. Win-win situation. For them.

You are their sacrificial lamb. Tin Patrimonio has been their milking cow last season, I hope you take a notice of that. The only difference is that Tin Patrimonio is not smart and skinny like you. They just cannot throw you the way they trashed Tin Patrimonio after Tin has given them money for the high vote rates she has garnered. But let me make it clear that I did not feel any remorse for what they have done to Tin simply because I think she's really not deserving; but this time, that I am seeing "their manipulative pattern" being done to you, I think I can't just let this pass. You are just too smart and too special to be treated like that.

Laurenti Dyogi maybe shrewd; maybe powerful in this one game. But it's okay Myrtle, for sure, Mr Dyogi also has a soul. We may not know as yet at this point what the good Lord would award Mr Dyogi's dishonest and unfair soul, but the Lord will perfectly know in his perfect time.

We all studied Hinduism in UP, didn't we? So what do we call it in History? Karma?

Exactly.

Laurenti Dyogi and PBB can play favourites in PBB. But we all know that Jesus plays the game of favouritism, too. Yes, Jesus does play favourites, too.

2. Toni Gonzaga. - The pretty PBB puppet. Myrtle, on this now very popular Facebook Fanpage wall of yours, I have read a comment of another one of your MANY avid fans which goes like this:

"Myrtle, pati so Toni Gonzaga insecure sayo! Ikaw na!"

True.

Dear Toni, Miss Pretty, I request that you closely watch (and watch again) your expressions and reactions during your interview with Myrtle during the last night's no holds barred episode. Toni, you tried to hold back your biases but you just can't get a control of them.

It was painful to watch that you could not even manage to let Myrtle speak a complete sentence before you cut her off. It was painful to watch not for Myrtle's side but for you, darling. You did not manage to control your biases against the 17-year old Myrtle who was consistently very honest during the interview.

Toni, what kind of answers did you want from Myrtle? Why did you not let her finish her sentences instead of cutting her off? And I thought you are one of the few hostesses in Phil showbiz who have integrity? What does Myrtle have, or what does Myrtle's presence exude which has caused you to be as obviously biased as you were during the interview?

Now I remember when Toni was a neophyte in ABS-CBN, a new face very fresh from GMA 7. She was the Toni who exuded a personality of a fighter. A survivor, a Toni who braved her way fighting all the bullies who came her way, trying to drag her down - including Joey De Leon of Eat Bulaga.

Toni used to be one of us then - BULLIED and BRUISED.

But now, Toni G. is beginning to become one and among the bad ones - the bullies, the insecure, the mediocre. And please allow me to reiterate the exact word - MEDIOCRE. And once more - Mediocre.

Toni, the pretty puppet of PBB, I've got two words for your ugly hosting the No Holds Barred episode of the PBB show tonight, here take this: Career Suicide.

You should know that Myrtle's fans are intelligent; do not underestimate them. Myrtle's fan base is a solid pool of educated people, the kind of audience who have learned and educated expectations.

Toni, we saw that your hosting of Myrtle's Q&A was ugly, bitter, insecured, irresponsible, unreasonbale, and most of all, not the Toni-style we used to know and admire.

Questioning why a growing up teenager whose passion is dressing up and putting on make up, and the question coming from Toni G. was painful to watch. Very disappointing, Toni. Your biases were showing from your crossed eyes and flaring from the tiny pair of your nostrils of your flat little nose.

Why ask Myrtle again and again why she likes putting on make-up? She already said it's her PASSION. It was like questioning a little girl why she breathes the air she, in the first place and naturally, is very free to breathe. It was like questioning a hopeful young lady why she dreams the kind of dreams she chooses to dream for herself.

I'm not telling you that I hate Toni now. What I hated was the way she threw questions at Myrtle. The way she tried very hard to destroy Myrtle's image on national TV in the eyes of her fellow youth. The way she consistently cut Myrtle off while she, in all her honesty, tries to answer in a good sport spirit.

If cosplaying is Myrtle's passion, so what's the big deal? The young lady is displaying a BURNING PASSION for this one thing she chooses for herself. And having passion at one thing than not having any passion at all, in itself, is what's important. Maybe even more important than Toni's self-proclaimed passion for hosting which, by the way, is now losing every integrity to her claim.

Not too late for you, Toni. Redeem yourself. Don't be too hard on Myrtle.

Admit it, Toni, you, yourself is a fan of Myrtle. You just have to admit it to get rid of the ugly power-tripping masquerade you now have going on inside yourself.

Toni said, "Ang hirap pala maging ikaw." Yes, Toni, Myrtle is way more intelligent than you are. Deal with it and leave the teenager alone. It is not her fault that she is not like everybody else.

3. Vice Ganda. - Myrtle, this person does not like you, as well. But we won't care about him. You are from UP and this guy is from Recto, so there's the big difference. People in Recto do not even have an inkling on what intellectual property is. Their ideas are almost always copied and plagiarised from unreliable sources; that is why, most of the time, people from Recto have uneducated opinions. They won't appreciate your uniqueness, Myrtle. And they won't care how special you are. These people are almost always used to the the very common of things that they are not bothered by obsolescence anymore.

4. Janice De Belen & Yayo Aguila. - I don't know. They're fat and you're not. Fat people do not feel good about themselves, so they project their bitterness to people like you who are almost too good to be true.

Dear Myrtle, please always remember that there may be many bullies inside of school, but there will always be more bullies, more monsters outside of it. They will try to destroy you, drag you down, gang up against you, even try to befriend you on the surface.

It is still very premature to say that what you're going through right now which started when you joined this PBB show is the biggest fight of your life. You are only seventeen. Still a long, long way to go for you, Myrtle.

One piece of advice: Please just continue to be you, Myrtle. You are unique, you are special. And many people, not the mediocre ones, adore the genuinely unique and special. It just happened that this PBB show which is supposed to be promoting and encouraging creativity, development of uniqueness and personality, etc, in every Filipino youth, is a fake.

You have been very brave since Day 1, Myrtle. And you are only three nights away from that hard experience. No matter how painful it might have been for you, just continue to be you. Do not ever let them take your passion away from you.

You are correct, Myrtle. Maybe you are just different from anyone else. You are unique, you are special, you are genuine. Just continue to be you. You may not know me maybe even after you come out of that house, but I would like to let you know that I am very proud of you from the deepest of my heart.

I am an OFW living hundreds of thousands of miles away from the Philippines but your sincerity has touched my heart and captured my soul.

Simply, YOU REMINDED ME OF MYSELF 10 YEARS AGO. And I am guessing that this very long letter contains the words that I would want to tell my 17-year old self should I be given the chance to go back in time and come face to face with her. Ten years ago when it always seemed that all odds were going against me.

I am a 27-year old unmarried mother who still has to wake up at 7AM tomorrow and perform my duties as a compliance consultant in one of the world's largest bank in the Middle East region, but here I am, talking to my 17-year old self 10 years ago --->Myrtle. Time check: 3:29AM in the Middle East. (Another thing in common for us: You are an Accountancy student; I work in a financial institution.)

Win or lose, you have already made it this big, Myrtle. You are one tough girl.

Win or lose, you have already made a remarkable image in our hearts.

Just continue to be you, Myrtle. Please just continue being you.

If they will be honest and proclaim you the Big Winner, then that will be good. They are making themselves a big favour of displaying the impartiality they are supposed to have since Day 1.

If they will choose to be dishonest and manipulate the results, we will pray for them.

Congratulations, Myrtle. You are a born winner!

Yours faithfully,
CR1mson university

100 Questions Before I Sleep! =)

100 Questions Before I Sleep! =)

NAME: Jhon Henry Bueron

AGE: 19

BIRTHDATE: November 1, 1992

1. last beverage = Cranberry White Chocolate Mocha Frappe. I forgot to drink some water after my dinner. Awww!

2. last phone call = Got it from a friend. *evil plan*

3. last text message = “get well soon.. hahaha “

4. last song you listened to = Try Try Try by Jason Mraz

5. last time you cried = Just this afternoon. Cried of too much laugh trip with friends. Haha!

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice = Yes!

7. been cheated on = No!

8. kissed someone & regretted it = No. I mean everything, you want some? Hahaha..

9. lost someone special = yeaa.

10. been depressed = yes! But seldom.

11. been drunk and threw up = Damn. NOOOO!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Black

13. Brown

14. Blue

LAST YEAR (2010), HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend = YES!

16. Fallen out of love = Yes. TIP: Don’t dare to touch my hand. Hahaha!

17. Laughed until you cried = Yes. I’m a loud type of person and I most often laugh in any situation. Hahahaha. See!

18. Met someone who changed you = oh yeaaaaa. =)

19. Found out who your true friends were = YES baby.

20. Found out someone was talking about you = yes! My crazing friends often do that to me.

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = Ey! How did you know that? Hahaha. YES!!!

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = Serioously? 50% I think. That’s how friendly I am in FB!

23. Have you ever felt humiliated?= Yes. Awww.

24. Do you have any pet? = Yes. Wanna meet him? His name is Lancer.

25. Do you want to change your name = Naaa. My name sounds like a Prince’ name!

26. What did you do for your last birthday = Talk to a friend, went to the cemetery, food trip, and enjoyed a surprise party at home.

27. What time did you wake up today = uhhhm. 6:30, then I resume sleeping then woke up at 9:30. Hahahaha!

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for= I can’t wait to graduate, go to Paris and find love elsewhere.

30. Last time you saw your Mother = I have my Mom here. Hahaha, 9PM?

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = Eating routine. I hate being bubbly. Hahaha!

32. What are you listening to right now = Price Tag. Again!

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = uhhhm. Maybe? Just Thom. I’m sure with that!

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = Blood of course! Hahaha. I have to sleeeep!

35. Most visited webpage = Facebook, Twitter, Blogspot, Google.

37. Nickname = Jhon, Jan-jan, Henry, Toto, Nonoy, Bueron (grrrrgh!)

38. Relationship Status = Single and still kicking. Hahahaha!

39. Zodiac sign = Scorpio! RAWR.

40. He or She = He.

41. Elementary = Bacan Elementary School

42. High School = Cabatuan National Comprehensive High School

43. College = Central Philippine University College of Business and Accountancy.

44. Hair color = Black.

45. Long or short =Long?

46. Height =5'8" :D

47. Do you have a crush on someone? = A lot. That’s natural, I’m not abnormal.

50. Tattoos = Wait. Uhhm. NONE.

51. Righty or lefty= Righty.

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery = Head Stitches.

53. First piercing = Nail Piercing. HAHAHA!

54. First best friend = Joven :) grade school. I have many on my nursery years, actually.

55. First sport you joined = Badminton, Volleyball, Track and Field.

56. First vacation = MANILA. My Home. Hahahaha!

58. First pair of trainers = WTF?!

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating = YES. Butter Scotch.

60. Drinking = No.

61. I'm about to = Sleep with you baby! Hahahaha.

62. Listening to = Music.

63. Waiting for = my eyes to close. Hahaha!

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? = Yes. I want them.

65. Get Married? = Yes! Why not?!

66. Career? = I always dream to have a spot on a world largest accounting firm! Aww.

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes = Any! Everything's the same if Light Off is in action :)

68. Hugs or kisses = Hey. BOTH!!!

69. Shorter or taller = Shorter.

70. Older or Younger = Younger.

71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic!

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Nice Arms! yeaaa.

73. Sensitive or loud = LOUD.

74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship! ♥

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Hesitant!

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger = My lips are not meant for them.

77. Drank hard liquor = Yeaaa!

78. Lost glasses/contacts = maybe? Hahaha.

79. Sex on first date = Lot are not virgins, but I assure you baby, I’m a kicking and wild Virgin Man. Hahahaha!

80. Broke someone's heart = I think so? I don’t mean it, that’s why don’t assume. Okaay?

81. Had your own heart broken = Yes?

82. Been arrested = NO!

83. Turned someone down = YES. Hihi.

84. Cried when someone died = Yes! Flush Flood!

85. Fallen for a friend = ALWAYS. I just hide every angle of it. Tssssk.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself = Yes! I love being a celebrity. Hahahaha!

87. Miracles = Yes! I like those.

88. Love at first sight = Honestly? Sometimes. Maybe they’re just a part of my past and never recalled them up.

89. Heaven = Yes!!!!

90. Santa Claus = Yes! Why not? Hahaha!

91. Kiss on the first date = Hahahaha. Kiss? Sure.

92. Angels = Yes! :)))

GUSTO/FAVORITES:

93. School: Ateneo De Manila University.

94. Drink: Cranberry White Choco Mocha Frappe. Hahaha!

95. Car: Bugatti Veyron!

96. Cellphone: Samsung SII

97: Place/Pasyalan: Party places. Tourist spots. Bar. Mall. House!

98. Food: Pastries! & Fried Alimango.. hahahaha!

99. Bilhin: PHONE. I need a new phone! Ahahaha.

100. After Graduation(college): I will take a deep breath. HAHAHA! Take the CPA Board Exam! After? I will go to places I dream before, tour the Philippines, go to Paris and go back at hometown and decide if I’ll enroll with a law School or not. Actually, I have a lot of personal plans after graduation. My brain just keep on telling me to wait for the right time to think more and tell others ‘bout it. I’ll just hold on what ever I have at that time, be thankful to God that, I have now the diploma and I am blessed for having it.

FEW FACTS. FEW REVELATIONS. FEW THINGS TO IMPART.

I just, Thank You for this. =)

MEMORABILIA: Agnosco Veteris Vestigia Flammae

Hello There! At last, I decided to resume on this, a friend just reminded me about this stuff and ‘twas good having this hobby back and kicking, again.

Actually, I have no idea of what hit-a-blog topic shall I cover for this. Okay, I’m thinking about the WVFJPIA Mid-Year Convention. I’m not suppose to put this on trending flow but I think this topic deserve to be told to. A lot of things happened, UPS for happiness and lifetime excitement, and definitely, DOWNS for flaws, and break-a-leg situation that I don’t deserve to encounter. I don’t know how I would define the experience in Mambukal Resort last Regional convention but all I just know is that it cannot be defined by simple words or truth-of-life situation; it would be, MORE than the word – GREAT :)

Hey, I will tell you some stuffs pertaining to this event. I’ll make this short, simple, and demure so don’t expect something great ‘bout it =) I give you just the important things to imagine.

DAY 1 – The Entrance: Green Registration!

ü I woke up so early that day, No rush up excitement, no further expectations, just fixing everything as if going to school in an ordinary day of the week. I am fortunate that morning ‘coz I rode a Jaro-CPU utility vehicle from our house straight up to the city and paid just PHP25 :) Dragging my trolley off and on the sidewalks, have my Black ‘n White jacket clipped on my shoulders. That’s it; I have to skip some boring details. :)

ü Waiting for others, for friends and free air to be picked up on the way. We stayed @ Andoks for less than an hour (or more? I don’t know), I just review some brainy notes for the GENMATLING Competition and have some pictures while waiting, waiting, waiting :)

ü Finally, we rode on a public utility vehicle straight to the people’s terminal and reconnect to another vehicle straight to the shipping port. Hell you that time for having waited for couple of hours before we ride to the booked ship for a scheduled time. Passengers (particularly students) were flooding at the waiting area. They all came from different schools, wearing their lets-have-same-designed shirts. Pictures, pictures, pictures on this point. Okay, BOOOOOOOP. Time to hit the way to ride in the RORO, together with those stupid trucks, I mean huge trucks. We chose the air conditioned room with television set. Rest, rest, rest. Talk, talk, talk. Goes outside for voyage seeing. Pictures, pictures, pictures here. For A couple of hours, we were there, It’s a hello to the City of Smiles :)

ü Bus trip here, with boring food yet cool friends and companions. Black, black, black were the words I uttered through the trip. The trip from Bacolod’s port to Mambukal Resort is really great. The views were awesome, the air, the ambience, Goose! Almost perfect :) I saw for the first time the actual scene of Mt. Kanlaon and magnificent stony rivers under the bridge. What else? Okay, here we go. I saw the Mambukal sign outside the Resort. Hello here for the first time :)

ü Lunch. The place was great. I can see the lagoon just besides the luncheon venue. The food was great, chicken BBQ, pork stew and a slice of dessert. IDs were distributed to all the delegates, free souvenir shirt and a black-baggy stuff :)

ü CHECK-IN. Oh COOL, room 7A was simply like home, double deck beds and clean CR. Okay this point is one of the funniest parts of the day, we pick as first as we can the bed that we’ll be using for the rest of the stay. I got the best one, the lower cut having a glass window beside. Things were set aside, have a short nap, lay down perfectly, talk, talk, and talk :)

ü Preparation for the GENMATLING competition. I took a short bath, wear my top listed polo and fixed everything. Whew, we’re there in the convention hall, slightly ready to take our seats for the contest. Contest proper…. Hell! The questions are effing hard! We topped the first round, got a special mention for an exceptional correct answer, and the rest is history. We ranked 2^nd in Iloilo Province but then, ‘twas a Regional competition and luckily ranked 5^th, we felt proud of ourselves, we knew it was just a slip of the chalk that we didn’t make it on top. :)

ü DINNER. Plenty of food, FOOD. I ate just a few ‘coz I’m not in good mood seriously, ‘twas not really relieving looking to the foods in front of me.

ü SKIP the AOG talent and interview night. It was around 12AM and I am fucking tired, as in TIRED. I took a half bath, and any other hygienic routines. SLEEP, not yet actually, I have played with my evening playmate, have some massage and talk, simply. I’m on my insomnia attack that time so I was not able to sleep continuously; I go in and out the room, got a piece of paper and pen, then right something while talking to my conscience. ZzzzZ. Slept :)

DAY 2 – The Memoirs: Me and You!

ü EARLY WAKE UP. That time was so COOL. I woke up early, feel the heat of morning sun, moan a little and went to the CR (morning procedure). That was one of the greatest mornings I ever had, went out the 7A room, do some stretching and sightseeing around. My brain is still buffering of all the crazy stuffs we’ve done the last night, I remembered dancing with them of teach me how to dougie without turning out our attention to those who were passing our sides.

ü AT NATURE WITH FRIEND. I was with a friend, roaming around the resort and take some crazy photos. Soon after, some of our comrades arrived at the so-called-mini-forest. Whoa, the nature is really good; it made our eyes full of scenic views and temporary visual and emotional contentment. We took a lot of photos while sitting on the huge rock at the river side, have a natural pose at the steel bridge and got a snapshot at the dead pool.

ü Altogether. We took our time roaming every sides of the resort, visit the beautiful lagoon, passed by at the officer’s white house, do a lot of in-and-out walking along the creepy roads and stopped a little at the sulfur pool. My heart feels healthy once again ‘coz of those stuffs we’ve made, the person I am with and the bonding we’ve shared.

ü Grand Entrance. ‘Twas cool, entering the hall for breakfast without taking a bath or let me say, without any complete personal hygiene and without change-a-clothe thing.

ü FAILED. I took a bath right after having our breakfast and walked around. I’m with my friend and we’re about to join others having fun at the tourist lodge and have a boating experience at the lagoon. Failed, the cam is running out of battery and we need to go back at our room to recharge. We forgot about those things and just spent several hours talking to each other ‘til the lunch time was around.

ü CONTEST. Ooh, that was boring yet we were learning. Questions on different competition were familiar to us, and we keep on having a wild guess and have a cheer after getting it right :)

ü Lying on my Bed. We are all there at room 7A, lying on the same bed or in other way while planning for an evening galore. We decided to bathe on a hot spring from a nearby to relieve our whole day stress (of taking pictures and roaming around) and some saying, just to experience that big thing. I’m not interested to join with them ‘coz I’m not feeling well that time plus the fact that I might get sick of soaking at the hot spring. I was cajoled to go with them, knowing that if I won’t, I’ll be alone at the room and I don’t like that to happen, so I go with friends.

ü HOT SPRING. Near at the resort is a commercial hot spring. From a short walk, we reached the place; we get up and prepare for a night soaking, together. We all feel sexy and hot that night, hot as the spring water has. It just so fun, and indeed great fun when I first touched the spring, Oh damn, I shouted foul words aloud and those who were there turned on their attention to me. Well, the hot spring moments are one of the “most” that I put in my life, soaking with special person/s with me, do a lot of talk and water play, no! bonding I mean.

ü NO RICE TONIGHT. We really enjoyed staying at the hot spring and it seems we enjoyed forgetting the time too. DAMN, we got late for the dinner at the convention hall and all that were left is a piece of fish, cup of chicken stew and slices of cakes. No rice left for all of us; instead we just grabbed two plates of cakes, weird cake.

ü Mr. and Ms. AOG. Hello there Super Bass, a pageant to remember that is full of lessons and funny stuffs happened. Okay I’ll hit some shortcuts. We have our participants to this event, and they ready looked awesome on stage, they show the confidence with them, and the competence throughout the pageant. Well, they got the very awaited “hakot award” yet only one of them made it to the top three. The most wonderful thing happened that night was for me to have a chance to experience as a part-time contestant having my question and answer portion. I was picked up as one of the three brave souls and forced to go on the center stage. I was interviewed in front of the crowd and answered a very simple question the way I think ‘twas perfect (no need to say everything).

ü The rest of the NIGHT. We are all tired that time and I just do some hygienic thing inside the CR, have an evening shower. I was shocked going out at the CR without my companions; suddenly a friend entered and just told me about the controversy. We’re not aware of the whole story that night ‘coz we decided to stay inside the room and do a lot of stuffs for the rest of the night. Sorry but I can’t tell you the whole thing here but ‘twas just fun :) The controversy brought a lot of thing to learn and things to think with. What ever happened, we still loved our own Miss D. and we still believed that she deserve more what she got that night. Okay that night is the highlight of everything, that’s my own clue. We played a lot :) as in a lot and fell asleep after all the things happened that night. Tired at full. ‘Twas a good night then.

DAY 3 The End: I Love You Yet Goodbye!

ü Excitement. I was slept like a prince when a friend suddenly touches me and called up to take a bath, 5:30AM? Well, we’re just all excited that day but sad as well ‘coz that was a goodbye day for us to leave the resort. We all get up, dressed and prepare everything for the last friend’s tour, the sound-full and people’s choice 7 amazing falls.

ü BREAKFAST. Frankly, I don’t like the foods, not just me who feels that way but my friends too. It was the last breakfast we are about to eat but not that satisfied.

ü 7 stairs to HEAVEN. We started our journey up to the 7^th falls right after we take our morning snacks. We’re just at the first fall but we all feel tired and stressed out due to steeply way up. I just have with me my phone, bottled water, some paper bills, and friends. I have them all throughout my entire journey; we walked with too much with smiles and all-out bonding. We passed through the 2^nd, the 3^rd ‘til the 5^th and 6^th falls, the experience was terribly amazing though I bathe with my sweat due to heat and dying tiredness. Here we go, way up at the 7^th and last fall. The last falling water met up my expectation as the best fall among others. We took a time at that spot to let them soak at the falls foot and have a lot of photo shoots. I feel so in love that time, full of love. Oh, not with a friend, it’s the nature itself! I feel free and wild at that place; all is a mixture of colors, natural colors to be exact. Finally, everything is set, and we are about to leave the place. We decided to ride in a 2 seated motorcycle to arrive at the resort, I may not have the best partner to the trip but I’m happy to have our friend A.K.A “Yayabells” to be with along a adventurous ride.

ü Here we go again at the room 7A, we compiled all our things and put it inside our trolleys and left the room which been a part of my life. We all wore our souvenir shirts, took some goodbye photos outside and proceed directly at the hall for lunch. Afterwards, we just walk just outside and have the last sightseeing around the resort before we left it. The bus was ready and without any further waits, we hit that transpo and set ourselves free from any backflashes.

ü Goodbye Mambukal. Okay, we left that place with full of memories and lot of things to treasured with, the bondings, the wild friends’ experiences and night hang outs. I really want to have it a week to stay there but we still have to set ourselves free from stress and sleepless nights.

ü RIDE WITH THEM. We are from CPU and together with us at the bus are people from SPUI. I feel comfortable with my seat with a friend; I just put my glasses on, share with my friend’s music and sleep besides. We decided to stop over at SM Bacolod to have a last minute shopping and buy some welcome-home treats. I spent great time strolling around with a friend and later, with friends. We bought our own picked souvenir shirts and way-home treats. I feel so great, I just don’t know why; maybe I have with me a special person to hang with. Friends are really amazing and you can’t simply live without them.

ü ON RUSH. So closed, we’re closely about been left by the ship for our scheduled trip. Thank God, we made it to the last minute, I feel my trolley felt also the way I was in hurried to take the last spot at the trip. Ooooh, that trip was cute. Why? We just sit down, talk a little, relax with mild massage, listen to music and suddenly, fell asleep. I feel every moment on our way home is so long, and everything is in slow motion. Memories and breakups seems to be a barrier on our way home, time runs so slow and all is in romantic and maybe stress free set up.

ü DOWN the Ship. It is a Hello to Iloilo, again. We’re all stressed! We took a tricycle and I chose the back seat to have with. The road is not fine, ‘twas full of rocky edges and it seems every turn ups is bouncing, everything bounced. I really feel like sleepy but I can’t, I’m on the back seat and it is impossible to lie down on a friend’s shoulder. Eyes kept on awake, I really feel tired!

ü Off to the City of Love. We took a Jeepney towards the heart of Iloilo. Again, we feel so tired and I was just seated on a small extension chair together with a friend. I can’t give him a verbal signal if he’ll be okay but instead, ‘twas just a phone-to-phone talking. Passengers are lessen as they stepped down the vehicle, 0ne, two, three and a lot stepped out when they reached their destination. We transferred to the usual seat, the foamy one. ‘Twas a long trip indeed, way up to the city. My head seems like to drop with at a friend’s shoulder but I just held it strong and keep myself busy so that I can’t feel like sleepy.

ü LAST TRIP. We were all separated this time, and few of us were together on the jeep to have it on the people’s terminal. I took the usual jeep I’m riding with and seated perfectly with my huge and heavy trolley. I’m hallucinating that time, it seems I’m still at the resort, having fun with friends and talked with them for the rest of the night. I got a lot of head-bangs and I can’t resist from having asleep while on my trip way home. I fell asleep for an hour and I was just surprised that I’m with my hometown now. Few minutes, I gave a signal to the driver and dropped me at my house. Finally, I reached my home safe with full of bring ups, memories and satisfied heart to have with the rest of the days.

ü HOME SWEET HOME. A warmth hello and excitement welcomes me at the living room. I’m about to tell them stories but I really feel tired. I just took a short bath, logged in at my facebook account to check who’s on, update my profile status and finally, embraced my sweet and soft bed then sleep perfectly, like a royal prince.

Indeed, the trip was definitely one of a kind for me. There were a lot of things which I think forbidden yet I keep doing it. Every second of our stay is really important, brought out a lot of things to treasure and reminds me that, there are things which made my life complete and people who touches my entirety with love.

A mind that is stretched by a new experience can never go back to its old dimensions. All experience is an arch where through gleams that untravelled world whose margin fades forever and forever when I move. I believe that all experiences I’ve got are worth remembering for, and worth to build up again.

Every moment is an experience. That would be all, and see you on my next blog post! =)

ME and YOU together :D

Actually, This is an Ideal Thing to Think with :)

When a man and a woman have feeling for each other, it does not necessarily need to have a formal relationship as boyfriend and girlfriend…

While both of you are still busy with your personal life it’s possible that you could make each other as an INSPIRATION…

NO COMMITMENT just a ROMANTIC BOND…

Isn’t it much sweeter and nicer when you both accomplished everything that you want in life and yet…

You still end up TOGETHER :)

MKB/jhmb